Tuesday, October 13, 2009
YES, IM UNDER CONFINEMENT N STRESS, NOBODY CAN UNDERSTAND MY FEELING ONLY MY MOM N CLOSE FREN WHO REALLY SAW IT HAPPENING!
I`M LIKE HAVING TORTURE BY U, I KNW I SHLD`NT ADDRESS HER AS U" BUT I JUST CANT STOP THINKIN HW SHE TREATED ME! I GONNA TAKE ALL E TING OUT N SAY FRM E BEGINNING IM MARRIED TO DIS FAMILY TILL NW! ACTUALLY I ENVY THOSE PPL WHOSE MOTHER IN LAW R REALI GD TO DAUGHTER IN LAW DE JUST LIKE GERALDINE'S...
FRM E DAY I STEP IN I DOESNT EVEN KNW IM LIKE GONNA HAVE A HARD LIFE.. I ALWAY TOT IF HUBBY STAND BY MY SIDE N EVERYTHING WILL B FINE N NO MATTER WAT I DO JUST A TRUST WILL DO.. BUT IM WRONG LIKE AS PPL SAY CHILDREN WILL AWAY SIDE PARENT EVEN THEIR PARNTS R WICKED! I HAVE A CARING MOM BUT HER ATTITUDE ISNT GD N SHE LIKE TO CRITIZE PPL N ALWAY EXPECT PPL PERFECT WHICH IS WRONG OF HER... BUT BCOS OF DIS PPL SAY SHE IS WICKED MOUTH... DEN U TINK FRM E DAY U MARRIED ME U DID A GD JOB AS A HUBBY? WAT HAVEN U GIFEN ME?
- PROTECTIVE LIFE?
- SUPPORT ME?
- CARE FOR ME?
- OR DID U MAKE ME HAPPY?
JUST GO THINK WAT HAVEN U DONE TO ME AFTER I MARRY U. I HAD MISERABLE LIFE OK! I LOST MY CHILD N KENA CRITIZE BY ALL PPL..
BUT DOESNT MEAN U ALL CAN PUT ALL E BLAME ON ME WHEN I LOST E CHILD.. U TINK I NT SAD MEH? WHO WILL WAN IT HAPPEN?
YES I ADMIT I WEAK N STUBORN.. EVEN PREGGY I WRK SO MUCH JUST BCOS OF WAT? COS I KNW WE NID $ N IN SINGAPORE BOTH NID TO WRK DEN CAN SURVIVE... BUT AFTER I HAD ENCI I REALISE TAT $ CANT HELP ANTH, EVEN HW HARD I WRK PPL DUN APPRECIATE, THEY JUST BLAME ON U WHENEVER TINGS HAPPEN!!!
FRM E DAY I LOST 1ST CHILD, THING GO CROOKED IN MY LIFE.. WHEN EVER U NT HOME I GT LECTURE BY HER!
SHE CAME IN MY RM N SAID:
"I KNW MY SON LOVE U ALOT EVEN WAT I SAY BAD ON U HE OSO DUN BELIEF, BUT HAVE U TOT FOR ME? I GIF BIRTH HIM N U LIKE SNATCHIN HIM AWAY FRM ME, I KNW I SHLDNT TINK LIKE DIS BUT SPARE A TOT FOR ME.. U LOST UR CHILD U KNW E FEELING SO Y SNATCH PPL CHILD AWAY? IN MY LIFE MY SON NV BOUGHT ME PRESENT, WHEN HE WIF U HE BOUGHT U SO MANY TING WHICH COST FEWHUNDRED BUCKS.. IF U R SMART ENUFF U SHLD ASK HIM SAVE $ INSTEAD OF ASKIN PRESENT FRM HIM... N E BABY U LOST BELONG TO ZHOU FAMILY IT DOESNT RELATED TO UR FAMILY SO ASK UR FAMILY DUN INVOLVE IN IT.. CHILD DIE JUST DIE Y MUZ U GO BURIED UR CHILD IT A WASTE OF $ AS U KNW MY SON NT TAT RICH. WATEVR U CAN SAVE JUST SAVE. U R MARRY TO OUR ZHOU SO U SHLD LISTEN TO US ALL TIMES DUN TINK OR HAVE UR OWN DECISION, DISCUSS WIF US 1ST.. "
all dis word makes me hate her n despite her in my heart... n nt only dis, there's oso word came frm her mouth when im preggy e 2nd time...
WHEN U R YOUNG R U NAUGHTY? IF BABY SAME AS U DEN HARD TO TAKE CARE LIAO.
COS MY SON WHEN YOUNG VERY GUAI.. (tat bullshit! ur son nt innocent at all!!) U MUZ CONTROL UR TEMPER IF NT BABY SAME AS U DEN WORST N DUNO IF DIS BABY WILL LOOK LIKE WHO HOR??(tat non of ur business anyway im nt ugly cant my baby lok like me?)
WHEN PREGGY DUN KEEP GOING OUT LATER KENA CHIONG DIRTY TING..(dis word i do belief!)
TING TAT SHE DISLIKE ABT ME WAS:
DONT WEAR SO SHORT N OPEN AIR,
WEAR A JACKET IF U WAN WEAR LIKE DIS,
PLS DO HSEWRK COS UR RM IS SO MESSY,
PLS HANG UR UNDIES IN E RM FOR DRYIN ONLY,
DON KEEP HANGING OUT TILL SO LATE AT NITE
DUN KEEP URSELF IN E RM ALL TIMES
DUN ALWAY SHOPPIN BUY SO MANY CLOTHES
ANYWAY I DO ADMIT SHE IS OLD FASHION N VERY SUPERSITOUS IN EVERYTING WE YOUNGSTER DO... i cant click wif ppl who is too supersitous n old fashion... i have my freedom on wat i wan wear n do... i do admit im fukin lazy! i can wrk OT as much as possible but nt housewrk cos housewrk u dun get paid! n hsewrk will nv b endin till u die! but i have a mind set tat i wear accumilate wear clothe alot den throw in washin machine n wash so tat it save water but SHE just dun like it... she wan it to b wash straight away.... anyway she is a $$ saver, she can cook super simple meal n tell u dun hiam e food as we eat like dis to save up $ de.. (stir fry veg, deeep fry fishcake n fry egg)... n dun u ever say u can beat me if i treat u nt well let me tell u if u dare lay a finger on me dun blame me!! im nt tat kind of pure hearted ger, i can b as evil as u tink!!
DIS time my precious ENCI is safetly born.. well i knw im a bit too worried for my baby as it takes me so hard to have 1 baby.. i precious it too much tat i dun reali wan any1 to take care of her except myself.. bu i knw it impossible cos i nid rest n help as im a new mum...
I knw u nt happy cos i snatch ur son away n dun even let u near granddaughter... but i have my reason.. cos u gt disease!!! u keep coughing n nv cover mouth!! u nv clean urself b4 u carry her!
u keep using old method to take care of baby! u nw hw much we spend on e santizer? n y muz u alway assume ting? u tink polyclinic checkup no nid Q? y muz u say i go shopping? any evidence? y muz u use e 3 for $10 milk bottle n dun use my pigeon milk bottle? isnt it u purposely? ask u use newborn pamper but u use S size de, weather so hot u wrap my baby like popiah n off e fan, ask u dun touch e baby cord but u like to touch n keep seeing it, u said in everyone face durin confinement wat i wan eat just say n u will do for me but when i ask for it u say i treat u like maid n say i fussy just eat watever is cooked. everyday i had lean meat wif rice or lean meat noodles or fish wif rice or green veg wif rice... i only had 1dish n 1rice!!! ppl gt pork leg to eat but i don, is dis call helpin me to grow stronger during confinement?
wat tonic did u gave me? nv ok!! just 2 time of eel fish soup tat it? my wound gettin beta isnt bcos u help me grow stronger is bcos my whole heart was wif my baby n i force myself b strong!! i wanna faster get out if dis PLACE!!! During dis days me n her quarrel n she start to say she wan buy sleepin pill n make everyone blames on me but have u tink wat if she wan e pill n end up is giving me eat? dun take commit sucide as a excuse!!! i can oso say i go jump dwn wat!!! u tink i dun wan jump dwn meh? just bcos of enci i muz alway endure u guys nonsense n bullies lor!! IF ANTH HAPPEN TO MY BABY WHO IM A GONNA BLAME ON? N EVEN BLAME LE GT USE? THING CAN B CURE?
As a hubby u shld learn to dote ur wife too n nt mummy boy! evryting oso mummy say... even we wan buy hse oso muz ask ur mom, den end up u will say mummy say dun move out cos scare we cant cope, stay wif her she can take care of us! WTF u gonna 30 yr old guy u still mummy say mummy say!!! some time i reali feel like divorcing wif u n take Enci away.. u can pretty well remarried n have another child since u so strong n u can find strong ger bare u more kids.. im different im weak im hard to get 1!! since u alway stress no $ den gif me enci, i dun mind wrkin so hard like a bull to grow her up!! i wont gif a single complaint!!!!! cos i love n precious my baby alot!! n i oso dun like my baby grow up like in kampongs days!
CHRIS, THERE ALOT OF TING I WANNA SAY TO U BUT I KNW U MIGHT NT WAN TO HEARD! BUT IF I KEPT IN MY HEART ALL E TIME I GUESS IM E 1 GOING TO COMMITSUCIDE NT UR MOM!!!
LEARN TO TRUST UR WIFE INSTEAD UR MOM!
LEARN TO B INDEPENDENCE DEN DEPEND ON UR MOM!
LEARN WAT IS RIGHT N WRONG
LEARN TO EXCEPT FATED
LEARN TO DOTE ON UR WIFE
LEARN TO PROTECT UR WIFE
LEARN TO B SMART N NT ACT SMART!
DUN LEARN TO B CALCULATIVE!!!!
DUN LEARN TO GIF EXCUSES! BUT GIF A GD REASON!
Seriously speakin u treated me well sometimes but i do belief if u stop being dependin on ur mom surely ting might b beta den nw! i told u b4, i dun nid rich life, as long as we both wrk hard n strive for anth den tat call couples.... dun alway ink if no $ den die die die.. i knw $ cant settle everyting but a pretty well mindset n goal ahead make ur life simple.. to b franly speaking i realise im gettin weaker days by days... i cant hardly get rest n a peace of mind... if u wan me to help u ways of relief stress den pls stop siding ur mom! ask her stop all those nonsense!! i knw n im prepare to get worst situation if i type all dis in blog.. but i wan to relief my stress in my heart!! Hope u can understand....
YYY
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009